My daily devotional started out with October's scripture being one of my favorites.
Jesus says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
And you know what, that is what I need... This month especially.
Not rest from work.
Not rest from housework.
Not rest from exercise.
Not rest from activity.
I need rest from my mind.
Anyone with me on that?
In a time where I am so blessed by what I do have, I just can't stop focusing on the one thing I don't have.
And I don't like feeling that way. Its not in my nature to dwell on what I don't have, but to be honest, these last few days have been that.
Have you ever thought like that...
If this would just happen...
If I'd meet this person...
If I got that job...
If he or she was healed...
If I could just get a chance...
If I lost that weight or looked this way...
or in my case, If I could just have a baby... everything would be good.
I think we've all been there... where we've pleaded with God to just let that one thing happen and then everything would be ok.
And I think God likes when we wrestle with Him. When we plead with Him. He likes to know the desires of our heart. He cares about the desires of our heart.
And while I believe that going through these things and wrestling with these thoughts is really crummy, I also believe that God sees and hears these struggles.
I know that He's not withholding the things we want from Him to torture us.
He knows the big picture.
He desires to give us the things we long for.
And He has purpose in withholding these longings and desires.
I have to think...
What is God trying to teach me?
What does He want me to learn from this time of wanting and waiting?
What good has come from it already?
What has this done for my faith?
What could others be learning from what they see me struggling with?
Do I still have hope?
Do I still believe that God can and will provide for me in His perfect timing?
In an email devotional that my mother-in-law sent me, there was a phrase that stuck out to me today.
"Trust (in God) steps in and reminds us that we can't ever learn how to live real faith if we never need real faith."
That's an awesome statement, in my mind.
How can we ever have real faith if we've never needed real faith?
I've always loved this scripture about God's ways vs. my own...
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the Lord.
"As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."
So, even when I feel like things aren't right and that my plans are way better, I believe that God is the author of my life.
The story He's written so far is pretty dang good.
Yes, there have been bumps and bends in the road, but He has found a path for me...
And He will continue to do so.
And for you.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart.
Lean not on your own understanding.
In all your ways, acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight.
Thanks for stopping by to read. I love sharing a part of my heart with this blogging community.
Have a wonderful rainy night, at least here in Minnesota.